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OMG! It's raining!! 😄
It was overcast yesterday, the sky had {& still does} that strange orange tinge to it.
There was a big dust storm further inland. Actually I think I noticed the ground
was wet when I got up! 🙂 It's not a heavy rain by any means, & I think it might actually be finished already {awwwwww} - but those raindrops were wet 🙂 {Lucky I brought the washing in yesterday :)}
Mazy
@Mazarita your schedule feels like an adventure to me, I know I couldn't do it . . . but I don't have to, I can borrow excitement from your words 🙂
@CheerBearI feel there is an underlying tragedy playing out in the background of your life, but despite that you are striving to help others Hell, just being a Mum is hard enough work! Your a Super-Woman!
@TeejI love the dog pic! I wonder whether your dream was your brain trying to create a personal reality that your bout of depression is leaving?
@ethI can't image the anticipation your feeling, of greeting your newest family member & of giving your beloved child supportive congratulations Thank you for sharing some of that euphoria with all of us
@AppleblossomLions! WOW!!!!
A shout-out Hello to @Shaz51 @Faith-and-Hope @greenpea @outlander @saturnzoon
I went to go for slightly different walk number 6 yesterday, there's only 1 track that has a little bitumen at the beginning of it, {there was an area of that forest that was used as a quarry once} seeing as it was overcast I headed to that one. I'd already been there this week, but the plan was to walk a different track. I needed the bitumen to park on {it's just off the bitumen highway also - so up until walking distance back to home, it's weather proof}, because if it rains chances are I'd be stuck for at least 24 hours. But the Staffy had different ideas. From where I parked the track I intended to go to wasn't far, but in less than a minute the Staffy was already waaaaaay off in the distance {it happens the moment I open the back of the ute :)} I stood at the beginning of the track I wanted to walk & started calling him, I didn't want to turn off the main track without him knowing what direction I was going. I have no intentions of giving up smoking, it takes all I have not to drink, but I try to stick to 1 an hour; it was on the hour so I lit a smoke & continued calling & whistling. I smoked the smoke whilst calling & whistling & then finished the smoke & continued calling & whistling. I saw him a few times, waaaaaay off in the distance on the main track; perhaps he couldn't see or hear me, but that's not what I really think. I think he caught sight or waft of the sent of a roo or pig . . . & he just didn't want to come back! I can have a fairly determined streak at times, so I started looking for a convenient log to sit on & wait for him to return. I tried one but it wasn't comfortable & truth is I was getting worried, because he hadn't done this for so long. I went to go back to the car, but I couldn't do it, so I turned back around & started up the main track, calling & whistling. I was cranky! As I walked, calling & whistling, that crankiness started to transform, I wasn't even getting glimpses of him now - he was just gone! This wasn't normal. I sort of become super-calm & everything feels like it slows down; like the neurons on the pathway that carry the super-stress emotions have burnt-out over my lifetime & there's a void instead. But thoughts were racing in the back of my head, 'he always comes back' 'my biggest fear is that one day he'll take off in the bush & won't return - is today that day?'. My voice was starting to crack & my mouth & throat was very dry, I'd been calling & whistling from quite some time. I reached the spot that I thought I'd seen him last & I just sort of stopped, I wasn't sure what to do next, I was thinking of going back & getting the car; like I said any rain & that could be disastrous, even dry I'm not sure my car would make it up that track. Then he appeared, like a dot in the distance, but a dot that was travelling in my direction 🙂 I don't get cranky at him when he has these adventures, I never did, in fact I Woo Hoo'd him & gave him a treat - I hope that sort of reception make him always want to come back to me. But I did, immediately, put him on-lead; returned to the car & went home 🙂 It had only been 1 & a 1/2 hours since we left, but considering he took off as soon as we got there, that was 1 & a 1/2 hours of calling & whistling! No wonder my throats a bit croaky 😉 We often walk for that long or longer, so when we returned home I decided we'd have a bathing afternoon - which means today I have a gossamer silky-soft little white velvet dog, a sparkly, shiny, glowing ball of muscle & even I don't smell to bad 😄
Hi everyone,
Big cracks in me today from the stress of things, and I missed my deadline to get my knitting in. It only involved a quick bus ride to and from the local shopping village, but I was way too stressed about everything that's going on, to do anything at all. Does anyone else get like that? I mean, nervousness being just so high, it paralyses you? The only thing I can do when I am like that is go back to bed to try to reset my nervous system. So that's what I did. When I woke again, I rang the co-ordinator of the event and told her I would bring the knitting in on Monday to their local branch, to be sent up through their internal mail system to the site of the event. She's not sure it will make it in time, but it's worth a shot. Otherwise, she will use the knitting for the same event when it happens next year. Fingers crossed it gets there for this year though.
Didn't do anything else I planned to do today either, aside from a few online things, but there was nothing else that was really important. Anyway, after sleeping, watching Star Trek for a couple of hours, and accepting that I failed to meet this deadline and there's no more I can do about that for the next few days, I feel more relaxed this evening.
I have a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. There may be a tweak to my medications, in response to the increased stress and excitement going on around me all of a sudden. Other than that, I expect I will feel somewhat reassured by just speaking with him about what's happening.
@outlander, cool to hear that you have two crochet projects happening now. Sounds like you've got your priorities sorted with which one needs to be done first. Look forward to seeing more pics as they are in progress, and when finished.
@Faith-and-Hope, how interesting it would be to have your D3 in the same course next year. Sending best wishes that she is accepted and that it is a wonderful bonding experience for you both.
@CheerBear, how lovely with the newborns at the hospital. Hope your day out with just you and the LF was enjoyable. Glad to hear your house inspection hasn't happened during the school holidays. To answer your question in the earlier post, I had planned to go up for the event with the knit bombing (and other arts and music), not just to see my work in it but to support other mental health people who are involved in the event. However, it takes an hour and a half to get there by public transport (and the same in return), and I'm not sure whether it will pushing myself too hard to knock out a whole day while other deadlines are looming. The event is at the end of next week. I'll see how I am closer to the time.
@Exoplanet, good to hear you had some rain, even if not as much as needed. I'm sure it feels like diamonds from heaven when it does come. Also makes me think of that delicious rain on warm earth smell that happens. I think your own schedule is much more than I could manage, especially all the caring for other creatures and hands on survival skills on your property. My main problem is that I am getting too worked up and anxious about the deadlines. There isn't really that much happening in my days by any normal standard. Just that I am freaking out about it being more and more pressing than usual. I remember another story from maybe a year ago where the big fella went off into a forest like that and wouldn't come when you called him. I'm guessing sometimes there are just too many temptations. You poor thing worrying and calling for an hour and a half. Great to hear of his happy return, your subsequent bathing, and good smells all round.
@greenpea, good to hear about the show you saw. Outback scenes and quirky animals sound enjoyable, even if beyond the financial reach of ordinary humans. Thanks for your kind words reassuring me things will work out in the end. Even if I fail, it'll be tough, but I'll eventually accept it and move on. Gotta at least try though, otherwise there's no chance of success at all. Hopefully my nerves about it all will settle down soon.
@eth, good to read you here, even if you aren't able to be around for the Feast tonight. I'm not sure if I will be either. Sometimes it's a bit overstimulating and I'm not in the best state for that right now. On the other hand, I have no other plans for tonight, and nothing much on TV. So may turn up anyway. Either way, hope your tech issues get sorted soon.
@everyone, sending hugs to anyone who wants one, and well wishes to all for the rest of the evening.
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