A long rave

[Meowmy]

@Zoe7 @Bunniekins @Shaz51 Thank you all for care so much. You help so much. Today, it is the first time, I told lifeline about my Suicide thoughts which were frequent and dark. She was so understanding and great, Then I told my GP and my work supervisor. They were both understanding. I feel so relieved right now. Much weight off my chest. I hope this is a positive step forward and I will get a bit better day after day. Thanks and take care.

[Zoe7]

That is all really positive @Meowmy Take care of yourself Hon 

[Meowmy]

@Zoe7 hello, how are you going? Miss you on forum. Hope everything is going well for you. I am much ups and downs with depression and anxiety. But forum help, hopefully slowly come out of my MI. I like to do more for people. Now I am all messed up inside, hard to release energy. So good to hear you again. Hope to hear often. Take care.

[Zoe7]

Super struggling myself @Meowmy Been an exceptionally difficult week with SI back. My pdoc is away until I see her on Wednesday so just needing to get through until then.

It totally sucks to be in this position - so hear you on depression and anxiety and feeling messed up inside. Getting through day by day and sometimes minute by minute is all we can do. 

[Meowmy]

@Zoe7 Sorry to hear your difficulties. I am learning ups and downs just normal struggles for life. We are lucky to have the forum and friends to care and support each other. I have been praying regularly which I find helpful. I will say some prayers for you. I find just lying there, as in hearing people praying for me soothing. After some time, I can get myself out of negative thinking . Will be here for you, Take care.

[Zoe7]

Thanks @Meowmy Hopefully won't be long before I can head to bed. Sooo tired and really need to sleep tonight. It is really hard for me presently to get out of that negative mindset despite some positive things happening. Also had my dad having an operation today - only day surgery but he is just going home now after some complications. My mum is sick as well so way too much to deal with alongside my own stuff. 

It is really good that you have something that helps your when you are thinking negatively - hold onto that and use it when you need to 

[Meowmy]

@Zoe7 It is hard when parents are unwell. And when stuck in negative stuff, it is hard too see light. Will keep you in prayers and heaven above will look after you. Have a good rest and sleep well. Take care.

[Zoe7]

Thanks @Meowmy Just got word that the hospital are keeping my father in for longer so it will be a late night for him. I need to head to bed very soon. Thank you for your kind thoughts here - the same back to you. Take care Hon 

[eth]

Evening all  and thanks again for the tags @Bunniekins @Zoe7 @Appleblossom  and all who have over the last couple of days.  @outlander  you too x 

I've been struggling a bit with everything and am really looking forward to 3 days at the farm from tomorrow morning.  So I'm sorry I've missed some lovely conversations and not been as much support as I'd like to be.

Love to you all too.

@Zoe7 Really nice to see you dropping in again and how much support you have across the forums.  Very sorry to hear things are really difficult for you.  Sending you the strength to get through the days until your pdoc is available.

@Bunniekins  I picked up from your post from yesterday morning that things have been making you nervous - not sure what's happening for you but hope you're feeling more settled by now.

@Appleblossom  hearing you about mixed feelings about your GP report for your NDIS application.  It is really confronting to read about things at their worst, and also another person's representation of your life - only you can really know the truth.  Hope for you that the Dr is open to you having input in what is said in the finished version of your access request.

Best of luck and good help to you @saturnzoon   Sounds like you've dotted every i and crossed every t to be sure your documents can't get lost again.  What a drama to have to do it all again. 

I have my first year review coming up and am in the process of getting reports and filling in forms all over again.  Was ready for another meeting with my coordinator of supports this afternoon that she cancelled less than an hour beforehand.  Hope upon hope (plus mega anxiety)  that all is worded correctly and my funds are continued.  It was a h.ll journey to get accepted in the first place that took a year and a half so I have some idea of how it might be feeling for you both.

@Angels333  love your painting.  Hope you are feeling more support from the staff where you are and that you can stay as long as you feel you need/want to. 

Once again, best wishes to all passing here and reading this post.  Miss you all at the moment - hopefully will find more times to engage here next week.  If I miss you tonight anyone I hope the weekend goes smoothly and has some yummy bits in it.  

[Zoe7]

I hope everything is okay with your forms and your funding continues without any hassles @eth Need to head to bed now but really hoping you have a lovely few days away.  Thank you for you message Hon - very much needing that support right now and truly thankful that I have it ...yourself included in that - means so much