A Long Rave

[Teej]

I agree that your produce sounds amazing @eth. That cheesecake sounds divine. 

Thats amazing that you have so many fruit trees @CheerBear.

so sorry to hear that unwell one has a set back and about your meltdown. @CheerBear. I hope it gave you some relief too. Releasing that volcano of emotions is pretty helpful.

today I am going to help host my friends sons 21st of all family. I am so not wanting to do it but I owe her so much. The thought of socialising and trying to wear a mask that long is petrifying me.

I woke up in a really strange headspace today after another vivid dream. I dreamt that I was looking after a friends baby and somehow I left her on the bus and it took hours for me to remember where I last had her. It was kind of terrifying. I had asked my psych this week to change meds because of the dreams but she said no because she thought it important for my brain to have them as it’s me processing it. I don’t know how helpful they are when nearly all of them revolve around shame. I’m a bit frustrated because I’m still carrying that emotion of the dream but hope it will subside. 

I have my tiara 👸 on today. I just want to potter in my garden. I don’t want to adult and play hostess. 🤦‍♀️. 

Well thats my first rave for a bit. I wish I had a bit more positive in it. 

[Teej]

Morning @Exoplanet 👋

[Exoplanet]

Hello @Teej 😄 What a wonderful surprise to 'bump' into you in real time 

[outlander]

Morning @eth @Mazarita @greenpea @Exoplanet @CheerBear @Teej @sarurnzoon and all passing through

[Teej]

Good to hear you got some rain @Exoplanet. I’m dreading summer here. My dog would love your forest walks. I have been very blessed that he doesn’t go but your staff sounds like so much fun. I also love watching athletic dogs exercise, they look so magnificent. I never walk mine on lead because I haven’t trained him well enough and I always think he needs that freedom to just run. He trained himself to heel. I just noticed one day as we were coming up to cross a road he’d go behind my heel and now does it on command. Pretty lucky with that but he has his not so good things too.

Morning @outlander. I 'see' you too. What are your plans for today. 

[CheerBear]

Morning @Exoplanet ❤ Love your reply to Mazarita. You have such a big heart and a beautiful way of seeing things. Had a little chuckle at the idea of staffy getting a bit of what he did for not coming when called. Sometimes I look at my kids and think (and say) the same kind of stuff when they too learn the harder way. Hope you enjoy your walk if you go.

@Teej big hugs. That dream sounds yuck. I dont like the lingering feelings that unsettling dreams can cause. I read what you have on today thinking "yep, nope". The garden and some pottering sounds way nicer. Those struggles are tough and I feel the feels of not wanting to do it that you might be feeling. You're a great friend 💛 Hope it goes OK enough for you. Thanks for your understanding also. Controlled(ish) volcanic eruption of emotions does help. I'm working on releasing the pressure more often and in little bits so it doesn't get to that, but it's a loooong work in progress (I'm thinking you might get that)!

Morning @outlander 👋 Hope today is OK for you too 💙

[outlander]

No plans here as yet but can change quickly @Teej ive been crochetting this morning and might start my studies today since i got tafe all sorted yesterday. Hugs for the vivid dreams, i get those sometimes and wake up in that strange headspace too. I hope todays okish or at least has some good moments for you. 💜


@CheerBear that pic is so pretty, its rather cold and gloomy weather here but it looks lovely where you are. Sorry about your meltdown, they happen, sometimes those emotions need a release somehow even if they are messy. I hope unwell one is ok too. 🌈
I cant remember if i read your plans for today?

[Exoplanet]

@Teej- I do not envy you the task of hosting a 21st! In fact I think AAAUUUGGGHHH!!!!
That mask you speak of, I call it 'the blur', sometimes it's bit of a blessing - I may not be able to 'take in' the good things, but I can't think of bad things either . . . it's all a blur. At times I think it's the only way I can get through some things. I think the problem is there's a massive process afterwards.
Try to be gentle on yourself today. If it were me, I'd try every hour, to go to a quiet spot on my own for 5-10 minutes {because for me it would be for a smoke} & just stop regularly for a bit. Maybe try to remember your helping your friend host the party, it's not all on you
I used to have horrific dreams involving babies & dogs of all things, I'd say it had to do with there innocents & helplessness. Perhaps, although every brain is different, mine
was trying to process the helplessness of an innocent victim.
Good luck for today & may the jewels of you crown shine brightly

@CheerBear- Thinking of you at this difficult time

[outlander]

@Exoplanet we had a staffy and she use to have that smile too, she also use to have a hyper mode and run around the backyard like crazy and if we had clothes of the line she would jump and try to take those off the line then when she got one that item would often go for a run with her. There was a time she took us for a run too, she really didnt listen and she escaped one of our grasps during a walk, that wasnt fun 😑😑

[Exoplanet]

Hello beautiful @outlander 

Gotta love Staffies because they just love . . . full stop! They love you, they love life, they love running, jumping, playing . . . they love everything 🙂 

So . . . . sending you giant Staffy love