not feeling good

[BlueBay]

Hi @Shaz51@Former-Member@Zoe7@Faith-and-Hope

my psych emailed me last night to say he will speak to his colleague before I see him this morning at 9.30. 

I’m really anxious feeling sick. I’ve git a headache. Nit sure what this psych is like never met him before. Don’t know what to tell him. 

Should I write it down. I’m beginning to get emotional 

part of me is scared. I’m thinking he would be a very good psych otherwise my psych wouldn’t employ him. 

Ok I’m going to write point form notes on my phone. 

[Zoe7]

Great idea to wrte things down BB - that way you will have it all in front of you when you get there and if you forget what you need to talk about you can refer to your notes @BlueBay

[BlueBay]

Hi @Zoe7@Shaz51@Former-Member@Faith-and-Hope

so I saw this other psych. He was very nice. He said my psych called him and he told him about my stressors. I sat down and stared crying. Telling him everything from not sleeping to sh to suicide to stopping my meds. 

He suggested I tske my meds but said it is my decision and they csnt force me. 

I agreed I would take them. He said I’m very stressed eith life snd it’s day to day life stuff. He said he totally gets why I’m so depressed and emotional. He suggested we see a financial advisor. He will now speak to my own psych and they’ll both decide what to do next. 

[Zoe7]

So pleased you have seen someone BB - just having that support must be good for you to know. Seeing a financial advisor sounds like a great idea - if nothing else it will give Hubby a much clearer picture of where the money goes and how much you do in trying to stay on top of the bills @BlueBay This could be a really good thing for you. It would be nice if some of that financial pressure is taken off you as I know what a major stressor that is for you. So pleased you had this appointment this morning - what are you going to do with the rest of your day?

[BlueBay]

The thing is @Zoe7 we've been to a financial counsellor before and when they looked st all our bills and our wages we have nothing left. So maybe there’s no point in going. I don’t know I might ask the support community centre where I get free food. I’ll see. 

Out st the moment eith with my daughter and Ayla getting last minute stuff. She’s been a little shit atm. Learning how to spit. 

[Zoe7]

oh no @BlueBay - spitting is not nice 

It can't hurt you seeing a financial counsellor again Hon - but it is entirely up to you too. You are pretty good at keeping on top of the finances (I know you have to be) sometimes we know how hard it is nd that we are doing everything possible to keep afloat. I feel for you BB - having financial difficulties does nothing to help with our mental state.

Hugs and hugs 

[BlueBay]

Yeah I’ll phone the support centre on Monday @Zoe7. But do you know what shits me? I have to do it. I have to call and enquire. I have to tslk to people.  It’s always me. I’m sick of always being me to do everything. I think that’s why I’m so over everything. It’s ftusy and tiring. I have to organise Telstra snd overdue bills. I have to explain to companies we are financially stressed. It’s embarrassing and I’m so ashamed at asking for help. 

But like this psych told me this morning it took a lot of courage to go this morning snd ask got help. And he said he was proud that I made it today as he could see that I’m very emotional. 

I think after Aylas party I’m going to collapse in a heap. 

[Zoe7]

The psych today just re-inforced what we here know of you Hon - you are brave and it takes great courage to deal with all you are dealing with and virtually on your own. That is why it is so importnt for you to resch out for support when you need it - just as you did with the appointment this morning. Yuo may very well fall in a heap after Ayla's birthday but if you do reach out to your gp, the lovely lady at the community centre, helplines and us here - with all that support around you you will make it through @BlueBay 

[Shaz51]

it can't hurt you seeing a financial counsellor -- a different one @BlueBay, he might have a couple of different ideas to help you xx

I can not believe ayla could be a little shit @BlueBay

Hello @Zoe7

[BlueBay]

I’m home alone now. Hubby went to see his mum I. Nursing home. I’m feeling emotional. You know if it wasn’t fir Ayla I wouldn’t be here anymore. My parents aren’t coming to the party tomorrow. It upsets me all the time. I know my dad is not very well but they could have come and just sit and enjoy seeing their great grand child. Snd they would have seen their other great grand children. 

I’m crying I don’t know why. 

I need yo focus 

I’m just sngry at some people in my life. I don’t deserve to go through this alone. I don’t deserve any of this. 

Im sorry guys I’m just feeling down this afternoon. 

@Shaz51@Zoe7@Former-Member@Faith-and-Hope