I’m home alone now. Hubby went to see his mum I. Nursing home. I’m feeling emotional. You know if it wasn’t fir Ayla I wouldn’t be here anymore. My parents aren’t coming to the party tomorrow. It upsets me all the time. I know my dad is not very well but they could have come and just sit and enjoy seeing their great grand child. Snd they would have seen their other great grand children. 

I’m crying I don’t know why. 

I need yo focus 

I’m just sngry at some people in my life. I don’t deserve to go through this alone. I don’t deserve any of this. 

Im sorry guys I’m just feeling down this afternoon. 

@Shaz51@Zoe7@Former-Member@Faith-and-Hope