@tyme I read a thread about someone talking about getting married and it has brought back the pain and tears of knowing I will never have someone who wants to marry me, nor will I ever have my own children.
Everywhere I look there's an ad on TV about insurance for families, shows about getting married and then the "I'm better than you because I have kids" look from people who are supposed to love me, my once favourite aunt being one of them. I just received an email from her about her beautiful daughter in law and some get together that they would be doing me a favour inviting me to.
Aunt is one of those people who had 3 successful sons who went on to get high paying jobs (one was a pilot, another is an aircraft maintenance engineer, the other lives in Ireland with his perfect wife and 3 perfect children). She looks upon me as "oh I love my niece but I am so glad she's not my child. That would be an embarrassment".
The trigger of marriage, weddings, all the trimmings and trappings that goes with it hits harder each year and I feel uglier, fatter and dumber than ever.
Centrelink called me, they have approved my exemption and to add to the veracity of my exemption requirement I burst into tears when she said it had been approved.
My girlfriend of 50 years has just bought a new car and wants to take a road trip tomorrow and I am trying to remain positive about going but I really don't want to. Guess I'll see how I feel tomorrow.
Bet ya wished ya never asked how I am now lol!! 😍
