My special place

[rav3n]

i hear how frustrating that is @Snowie are you able to get some space/time to yourself once mum's asleep? i sometimes wait till everyone's asleep and then grab a sweet snack and watch a nice movie or even just to journal. no disruptions, no responsibilities for a bit. you deserve your 'you' time.

[Snowie]

So spent most of the day and night taking mum to an event she wanted to go to.

Was very tiring. Probably took too much prn but only way I could get through.

Not much sleep again last night. Too many thoughts running around in my head.

[rav3n]

hey @Snowie you conquered the event!! i'm guessing the tiredness & lack of sleep is probably contributing to those thoughts too, please do get some rest today. your needs matter too. 

[Snowie]

thanks @rav3n hopefully i can have some 'me' time today.

[Snowie]

The xmas crap has already started

[Bow]

What’s happened @Snowie ?

[Snowie]

@Bow my mum, the same shit every year.

I have ruined xmas, can never have the family together again, you've torn the family apart, there's no point in me celebrating xmas ever again.

I really should be used to it by now. Just seems to have started a bit earlier than normal. Doesn't seem to get any easier. 

They say to wait and things will get easier, but it seems to be a long wait. When do we stop waiting. When do we come to terms that this is it. Either accept it or finish it.

[Bow]

Argh @Snowie  I’m sorry that is rough. Never ok to talk to people like that, I’m sorry your mum is so difficult all the time. 

is your hubby back yet?

[Snowie]

No he's not back @Bow Probably not to at least until next Friday.

I'm just tired of being that person. I've had enough of me, I'm sure others have too.

[Eve7]

Sending you a big hug 🫂 @Snowie My Christmas will be bigger than Ben Hur as we’re joining the family in Sydney.