oh yes it is super hard @Former-Member its super stressful for me to esp when pop blames me for the financial struggles as well. it can definently feel like a punishment cant it! it is really sucky but i guess sometimes the other alternative of staying where you are isnt the best answer either. having a little one can make things even harder as well esp when the unexpected things happen like being sick or needing to be home from school, or having fussy eaters as well.